I’ve gone through some tough times
But, I am ready to get active here again
One thing I hate is blogs where the writers post very infrequently, and when he does post something he always has to apologize for his absence.
However, for the past weeks, I have really not been blogging on this site, and I have felt guilty about that.
Because of my dislike of such apologies, I am not going to apologize. I will say, I have been going through some fairly traumatic things in my life for a couple of months or more, now, and those things have been the reason for my lack of attention here.
My wife left me in May
Yep, my wife left me. Well, I used that line as sort of a shocker.. she did leave me, but not out of any malice. She left in May to go to the United States (as most readers know, I am an American, but I live in the Philippines).
My wife is a dual citizen, American and Philippine citizen. For the past couple of years, she has been doing seasonal work in the United States, in Alaska. So, right now she is away. She has been gone for just about exactly 3 months now, and she will be gone about 3 more months before I see her again.
Last year, I weathered her absence fairly well, better than I expected.
This year has been a different story.
It has been very difficult
Part of the reason for my real difficulty with my wife’s absence this year is related to some changes in the household. We have accepted a relative to come and live here on a temporary (2 year) basis. He has been quite disruptive, and disrespectful. It has been very hard on me.
Weight Loss Issues
Surprisingly, some of my struggles this year have also been weight loss related. I am doing fine with the weight loss, but there are some issues that I will be writing about as the week progresses.
As kind of a teaser, here is a preview…
I have found it very difficult to do extended fasts. I have a friend who does some counseling, and he is also an experienced faster. I have talked with him extensively, and after I told him of all of my troubles when I mentioned the difficulty that I have had with fasting, he said the reason was obvious. It was not obvious to me, because I have always found fasting to be easy.
My friend told me that I have been unable to string together extended fasts because of the stress and pressure that I am under. I think he hit the nail on the head. I will be writing more about this during this week.
Another major weight loss trauma
Because of some things that have happened these past months, I have come to realize that despite my weight loss, I still have some emotional issues with food. I still need to work on my relationship with food. This is something that I need to overcome.
Discovering issues that we did not know we were experiencing is a good thing, especially if we face up and deal with such issues. That is what I intend to do.
Big weight loss trauma
Recently, I discovered another thing that is related to my weight loss. I am not going to say what it is right now, but I will tell you later in the week.
This issue has been so traumatic to me that it even made me think about whether I even wanted to lose the rest of the weight. I have put those thoughts aside, though, and gotten, more or less, back on track with losing the remaining weight that I want and need to lose.
Where do I stand right now?
Right now, I am feeling great, except for some of these issues I have been facing. The emotional and trauma issues, though, are coming to a resolution, and I am determined to get beyond them, so that is good.
Currently, I weigh in at 215 pounds (of course it varies from day to day). My peak weight was 430 lb, so I am currently down 215 lb. I have done some successful fasting last week and this week as well. I am currently on Day 3 of a fast. I don’t have a goal, I just want to carry on with it as long as I can.
I am very determined right now to break through the 200 lb mark and put a “1” at the beginning of my weight, and I feel good about being able to do it.
I will be updating you on these issues as the week progresses.
I hope everybody is doing well!