I figured something out
I am an emotional eater
With all of the fasting that I did last year, I thought I had put things like Emotional Eating and my Relationship with food behind me. I never had trouble fasting, craving food, or anything like that, so I just did not consider it an issue.
Recently, though, I found out that I was wrong. I have a problem with emotional eating, and I need to face it.
As I have said over the last couple of days, my nephew is living with me, and he has put me under enormous stress. Sometimes he is quiet and does not cause problems. When that happens I have been able to fast successfully. But, at other times there is an uproar in the house, and then my emotional food issues take center stage for me.
Last week, I had been fasting for 3 days with no issues. I felt great.
Then, toward the end of my 3rd day, my nephew came home from school, and there was a major outburst. I got pretty upset, and he did too. Before his arrival from school, I had been feeling very good and very secure in my fast.
About an hour after the outburst of problems, I went to the convenience store and bought 2 bags of chicharron (Pork Rinds). I ate both bags.
The good news is that I chose an appropriate food, a food that is friendly for my Ketogenic diet. A portion of food that really would have a very minor impact on my blood sugar and minimal insulin response. So, I chose a healthy option for my emotional eating.
However, I know that I ate because I was upset and under stress. That is not a good reason to eat.
When I realized what I had just done, it distressed me even more, but I did not eat again. That was a wise choice.
Facing it head on
I think it is also a great thing that I realized that I had just eaten for a poor reason because I was emotional and under stress.
I also realize that what is done is done. I already ate, I can no longer change that. But, I can face the problem, work it out, and be more aware and carefully next time. And.. that is what I intend to do.
We all are emotional eaters
I think that to some extent everybody is an emotional eater. People like me, though, who have been morbidly obese are especially impacted, though. It is something I have to resolve, and I intend to do that!
This is something that I will be putting a great deal of thought and attention into. I will beat it, or at least control it.
I have to!